Nah, but here's an update for you of what is going on with me at the moment.
After spending a half-assed year trying to be an influencer/content creator, I realized that I don't want to be a brand. I don't care to have 100k followers, paid sponsorships, and all that comes with being a "professional" blogger. I started following lots of fellow bloggers on Instagram not only to connect but to learn. What I learned is that there is a lot of content out there, and most of it is crap. Here's a cute pic of me in a beach hat, check out my post on the top two items to bring to the beach (spoiler alert: it's a towel and a bathing suit.) From my own research and observation, a professional blogger has to be constantly captivating his or her audience. And let me just say, that is absolutely not me. I'm not the type of person to generate fluffy click-bait posts, for the sake of engaging followers. The internet does not need more clutter. Now, I don't want to discount the thousands (?) of people who actually are awesome bloggers creating amazing share-worthy content on the reg. And some of these Instagram pictures are truly gorgeous, and I follow because I love seeing all the pretties. But I don't have the patience to try to be that awesome, that frequently. I have a life to live, right?
Last week, I dropped my handle, theflipsideofzen. I deleted the Facebook and Instagram pages. This blog isn't going to fit into any type of theme. I kept trying to brainstorm and lock down what it was supposed to be. It's not a lifestyle blog with tidy categories, airy pictures, and personal yet general posts. It's all over the place. And let's be honest, it's pretty infrequent. I posted four times last year. FOUR. To my grandmas, I want to apologize for not posting more. I know you checked the blog every day.
When I first started this blog, it was to document our life in China. Only friends and family read my posts, and back then, their feedback meant the world to me. They cared and they supported me. It was fun. When I found myself in incredibly difficult situations, I just imagined how the story would sound later when I was telling it here. I really miss that. I don't like writing something in hopes some strangers will share it or pin it. I just want to be me.
It's been two and a half years since leaving China, and I'm still trying to find my way here in Florida. I'll save that for another post (maybe). A part of me wants to be transparent and vulnerable, in hopes of finding camaraderie. But then there is the other part, which wishes to remain private and closed off. I don't know.
In conclusion, I would like to welcome you to my new
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